A lot has happened since my last blog, some good, some bad... but life goes on and I've still got some time on this planet and I plan to make it a life worth living. This will no longer be a blog about dealing with domestic violence. I feel like I can finally say that I've moved on and though I may never fully heal, I've got a clear mind and am ready to leave it in the past and never look back. Brian's sentencing was a few weeks ago. I was asked to appear in court or at least write a letter to the judge to be read aloud in court. I respectfully declined. I feel no need to hold on to the pain that Brian caused. It happened, I'll never get to relive the years that I lost because of him, but I also don't have to allow his actions to dictate the way that I live my life from now on. I feel that though the court let the children and I down, God won't. He will make sure that Brian pays one way or another for the things that he's done. I'd put money on the fact that his days are numbered in his happy little life. Either way, I just don't care about it anymore. Not making any sort of statement was my way of finally letting go. It was easier than I thought.
I finally got a job so I spend most of my time working and I've got to say that I feel so accomplished in doing so. I don't make much money, and I'm still stressed about being able to afford to move, but it's a step in the right direction and I really couldn't be happier. It's taken me a long time to feel this good about myself again, but I'm so proud of myself for letting go of so much! No longer do I hear his voice echoing in my head telling me how worthless and pathetic I am.
It's late and I need to get to bed soon. See ya on the flipside!
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